and you learn to accept it

Here is how I come underdeveloped and over used
followed to the point where all I had has been taken and re-imagined
here I am now standing and imagining
spinning and foreshadowing
accepting these things that have been coming
I can't change, I don't know how
I just stand waiting on the shifts of clouds
I don't speak because I lost my voice
I lost my freedom and my ability to make a choice

To move on and to call it a day
a luxury I had way back when
to move on and to call it a day
is just accepting these things

Failures and successes laid out sexy with their backs arched
eye candy from here if you are standing far
people love me, people get disappointed
I just feel I have been here before
a complication cost as much as the thought you put on it
a thought of me cost as much as a complication you put on yourself

you want me?
you have me but I am a decoration that gets put away after the holiday
I want you
but you tease me and my legs are too tired to walk that far
your words don't affect me
and my lies are too easy to see
and your asking
what you are asking is the things you can't accept

a possible new logo

the HAPPINESS cd

1. Stars - Ageless beauty (the most serene republic)
2. Goldfrapp - Happiness
3. Jose Gonzalez - cycling trivialities
4. Eels - the medication is wearing off
5. The Weepies - Stars
6. Blonde Redhead - Spring and by summer fall
7. White Rabbits - I use to complain now I don't
8. Rouge wave - Lake michigan
   
9. Sally Shapiro - I'll be by your side
   
10. Postal Service - sleeping in
    
11. Lamb - Til the clouds clear
    
12. Over the rhine - looking foward
    

John Lennon is the fucking G.O.A.T

I don't know why I never noticed John Lennon's solo career besides his days with the Beatles but it is something I need to get into ASAP. I feel half of the reason is listening to Imagine over and over and This is Christmas (look what have you done) (which by the way this and Trans Siberian Orchestra - Christmas in Sarajevo are the only two Christmas songs I can tolerate)

What brought me to John Lennon today is like how all my musical discoveries happen through my magical Winamp. I have David Bowie's discography and I didn't realize that he also has a version of "Working Class hero". David Bowie's version is OK but Greenday's version is on point and I love the nod that they give to John's version in the end when they let John finish "If you want to be a hero than just follow me"

Working Class Hero is an amazing song that if you have ears, heart and a functioning brain than you can feel how relevant the song is still.

Keep you doped with religion and sex and TV,
And you think you're so clever and classless and free,
But you're still fucking peasents as far as I can see,
A working class hero is something to be,
A working class hero is something to be.

Celebrity scandals, baseball players taking steroids, what is new in fashion shit that should be on the news less than 10 minutes and just report about stuff that matters like real people and their problems.

Things that got my attention this week

In Rainbows

Radiohead is an amazing band and like with every amazing band there must be one album that must be criticized by fans and critics, that album was "Hail to the thief". After going hard with Ok Computer, Kid A and Amnesiac, Radiohead proved to the fans, critics, and haters that they are a group that is an unbelievable force so with "Hail to the thief" there had to be a downhill. I loved Hail to the thief, btw.

In Rainbows released worldwide thru the web on October 11 via the band's website. Fans had a choice to pay whatever amount of money or run with the album free, the other choice was paying $80 for a beautiful boxset that contained 2 vinyl records, 2 cd's (reg album and b sides) and artwork.

December 31st New Year's Eve Radiohead had a webcast to celebrate the physical manifestion of "In Rainbows" called "Scotch_Mist" (which was their second webcast to celebrate the album) January 1st the album came out. I don't buy albums anymore since my iPod is the core of my life, I did buy the album to support my boys.

I am in love with the album everyday and second disc is just starting to settle with me.



Batman Beyond [Return of the Joker] - unedited version-

I've been a Batman fan since childhood, watched all the cartoons when I was a kid, watched the movies growing up. I love Tim Burton's version of Batman. I hated Joel Shumacker all these years for ruining it and Christopher Nolan's version of Batman made me understand what all 3 directors were going for. Tim went for an artistic approach, Joel went for the kids (cause let's face it comic books are for kids, not for geeks) and Chris brought Batman to a more darker side.

I use to watch the cartoons as a kid like Justice league and the 60's Batman but when I got older I lost interest in cartoons cause it was aimed for kids, so therefore I thought it was cheesy. Just recently I saw a clip of Batman Beyond [return of the joker] on youtube and I thought it was so good that I searched for more clips of the Batman cartoons and I loved it. I actually think they are much better than all the actual movies combined (and I love the movies to death)

Batman Beyond showed the Joker in a very sadistic way that made me be afraid of him. I never acknowledged Mark Hamill's existence as an actor since Star Wars but his Joker is absolutely the best interpretation of Joker EVER!!

Watching the cartoons have made me crave more of the Joker and Harley Quinn, two of the bad ass couples in the history of bad ass couples. It is funny that Joker in the cartoons, comic books, and movies will always take poor Batman's thunder and rightfully so cause he is the best villain.

Empty

I woke up with the word "empty" in my head. Empty interesting word to be in the head this morning. Empty stomach, empty in ideas, empty heart, my vessel is cleared out. What does this mean? Do you know longer feel anything? Do you know longer think of anything? Where do you stand in the hours that are provided for your 1 day routine? I don't know, excuse the cliche but seriously I don't.

Is not being depressed, or being nonchalant but what it is, is just an soulless person walking around aimlessly with no motivation and no direction. Am I dead? That would be an awesome wish cause I do fancy ghosts but no, I am not dead. I am here breathing the air with desperation and just filling my vessel with angst, anxiety and whatever bad thing that is a molecule floating with the air I breathe.

A vision

I went to sleep, sleep all the way in deep where I saw dust blown into my eye, it was on purpose, purpose, it was a purpose to a dream, likely a nightmare, do you have one of those? all women, all women, all women becoming one, becoming swords with their intellect and words, beauty and charm.. developing plans for a mission, a mission spread all worldwide. Extension of hand made into a fist connected with a wicked look brought over to men as each one opened their hand, each beautiful lip blew dust ..all men

all men worldwide slept, with their intellect and a black bag over each man's head walked up and pulled each lever down, prevailing the effect of a world turned currupt, but in the end ...in the end the dust got washed away then the nightmare struck again.